So I'm out at Mom and Dad's again.  Just thought I'd visit to make sure it's still standing.  Hasn't burnt down.  I also wanted to check some emails.  Don't have any new pictures of me and Conner but he's at his Dad's so that will just have to wait awhile.  I'll try to visit everyone's blogs.  Hope your all having a wonderful life.

 

Be back soon.

 

So things are Ok.  I miss my good friend and only he knows who he is.  I miss chatting and hearing funny stories.  Or getting texts when he was wanting to tell me about a certain day of the week. 

 

I'm still plugging along but with no internet.  I don't really know when I'll be getting internet so whenever I can I give an update on here.

 

So I'm hoping everyone is well.  Well chat soon.

So things are still going well.  I have been going through a little bit of soal searching and have found that I'm a lot stronger than I thought.  I am happy to report that a promotion is going to happen soon.  But that internet will have to wait til that happens.  I hope your all well and I will be talking to you soon.

 

Bless you all.

Janice

Just testing.  I've put two other blogs on here and neither have shown up....

Today is my birthday and I'm very happy.  I'll let you know more later but things are looking up on the job front.  I'm still at the bank but there's something in the works.

 

Hope your all well.

So things are going really really well.  Today's my birthday.  I'm at my parents having homemade chocolate cake which if you've never had I'll forward the recipe.  I have an interview tomorrow with a job closer to home.  So close I won't have to drive but then the position I've been waiting for at my current place of work is coming available.  If I could just meet a sexy man I'd be in heaven.  Hope your all doing well.

 

 

So things are moving along nicely.  I've adjusted to the new house and Conner seems to be doing well too. It's my week off so I'm going to starting potty training tomorrow.  That will be interesting.  He's sort interested but not so much.  We've been acting like little kids staying up late and not getting the required amount of sleep which is why he's passed out in my old bed at my Mom and Dad's right now.  It's OK though cause I am having so much fun with him.

 

I hope everyone's doing well.  Talk again soon.

 

Janice

Just so you don't all think I've died or something.  The new house is great.  Although I only have my cell phone I don't get a lot of calls so I'm OK with that.  Conner didn't like the new place at first but is settling in nicely. 

 

I'm happy even though I'm broke.  I'm going to spend the weekend with an old friend who I haven't been with in awhile....ME.

I"m lookin forward to it.  I'll catch up with you all soon.

 

Janice

So in my new place I won't have internet until July.  The story is I don't make enough to have all the luxuries.  So I'm getting the basics until July when things change.  I get more Child Tax Care Credit.  I go from 167 to 310.  That's a huge difference and it means I will be able to afford simple luxeries such as internet.  So if you don't hear from me often don't worry.  I'll be back in July.

In less than 24 hours Conner will be 3.  I'm so excited.  He's finally over this terrible flu that he so kindly gave to me and he seems on the mend.  This weekend should be great.  I can't wait.  That's about all for now.

 

      

So things are moving along quite nicely.  I'm getting my stuff together for moving.  I'm actually trying to not be on the computer so much because after I move then only time I'll be on is when I visit my parents every other Saturday.  For those of you who would like my phone number just send me a private email and I'll forward the number.  I'm going to see how it works with no cable, no internet for awhile.  Honestly I can afford it.  I won't have the money to figure it out until July then it will be the decision of what I miss more.  Cable or internet.  I can't afford both.  I will be living in a small town so there's no such thing as a bundle package or anything like that.  So anyways, I'm sure I will be provided with what I need to survive.  I'm excited about that too.  I have a feeling that big things are going to happen soon.

 

So I hope everyone has a great week as I'm going to focus more on packing and won't be on until the weekend.

 

Ta ta....

So I was talking to my Mom today.  I realized I'm excited about my next adventure.  That's moving out.  I'm giving myself 2 years for a promotion.  I'm hoping that within the next year or so I'll have a promotoion which will give me enough money to live comfortably.  I don't want a lot of things I just want to know if anything happens I'll be ok to deal with it financially. 

 

Next weekend Conner will be 3.  We're taking him to see the live version of Thomas the Tank Engine.  He hasn't put it together yet but I know when he sees him he'll lose his mind.  There will be lots of pictures.  I can't wait.  Then on the Monday we close the sale of the house and I can officially move in.  I won't be moving til probably the following weekend but I'm soooo excited.

 

Just me and the Conner Man.  Yippie.  Then Baseball starts and the first week of June I go camping......Yippie....I can't wait.  It's going to be such a great year.

 

     

So with the price of gas the way it is it's making it harder for my ex to come and get my son for the weekend.  Which is funny cause he's makes more than double the money than I do.  So I'm driving Conner into town tomorrow because frankly I need the time alone.  I haven't slept a whole night through for awhile and I need to get packing because the closing date is a week from Monday and Conner's birthday is Friday and aaaaaaaaaaaa........

 

Ok.  So things are starting to get a little hectic.  When my parents are finally back from their holiday things will be better.  I can always have Conner go to his grandparents place if I need some me time or I have something I need to get done.  I'm so happy for that. 

 

I talked to my ex on the phone last night and he's apparently stressed to the gills.  He was trying to cancel his visit with Conner.  I told him you will crush a little 3 year old's heart if you do that so that's why I'm driving him up on Sat.  I just wish that some people would get their crap together and figure out that life is hard.  There are resources made out there to make life easier but it's got to start from within.  I'm only speaking about my ex.

 

I was chatting with my sister over the internet just now.  She lives in Switzerland and she's so stressed because they have no money and her husband is never home so she misses Canada (which I can understand).  I'm just appreciating what I have here I guess.  So I'll live my life and not worry so much about the small stuff cause the small stuff happens.......

 

If I don't make any sense don't worry.  I've just heard from two really really depressed people and frankly now I'm feeling a little depressed but I'll make it cause I have my beliefs and my family.

 

 

So I was blizzarded in with Conner most of the weekend.  He woke up puking at 6:00 am on Saturday.  He did that for most of the morning.  I was trying to figure out how I was going to get him into the car to get to emerg when he feel back asleep for 3 hours.  Then he woke up like a new person.  Drank a lot of liquids.  And proceeded to have the runs for the rest of the day.  He anounnced to me everytime he was peeing but he meant out his butt.  Sorry to be so graphic but I haven't spoken with any adults since Friday and I'm kinda wiped out.  He went to bed early last night which was cool but then at around midnight I had a visitor.  I couldn't sleep so I went into my parents bed (thank goodness their still away).  Conner came to find me at about 5:00 am and I slept with him in my own bed until 7:30. 

 

He slept again on the couch for a couple of hours today.  I was worried he wouldn't get to bed til late tonight but he was asleep before 9:00.  So I'm off to bed but I thought I'd post a couple of pictures of the weather.  It's not bad now and I'm sure I'll make it to work tomorrow depending on how Conner feels.

 

My poor poor car.

   

So I was picking something up for dinner at the store.  Conner was with me and he was very very tired because he stayed up til after 11:00 PM last night and woke up at 8:00 am.  He's asleep now and I'm hoping he stays asleep.  That way we'll be back on the schedule we're suppose to be on which is he's in bed by 7:00 and wakes up at 7:00.  Anyways, I saw the lady whose was "going" to rent me the house awhile ago.  She felt really really bad and said she had bad news for me.  Her husband had rented the house out from under her and she couldn't rent it to me.  I explained about how I was moving into a new house that will be my parents in awhile but I'm going to live in it with Conner for a couple of years first.  Anyways,  I guess she felt better but I got to thinking afterwards.  What if I really wanted to move out to that place.  I was really starting to get disappointed not because I wanted to move there but the whole fact that she had promised it to me first. 

 

O well.  I'm moving to a much better place and it's in town and closer to civlization which will be easier in the long run.  It's also a beautiful house and I'm looking forward to living there.

 

I do feel bad for her though so I guess tonight before bed I'll pray for her. 

 

  

What is it about waking up a 2 or 3 in the morning all the time.  I wish I could just sleep the whole night through but I keep waking up and it's annoying.  I thought maybe Conner was awake but no he's fine but I'm wide awake.  Sheesh.....I need to get to sleep......

I woke up this morning and realized that it's time to get out of this depression and start living.  I'm going to start exercising (best form of natural anti-depressant) and start making better choices of what I eat.  I want to be able to look in the mirror again and like what I see.  I'm not going for model status here just healthy.  I'm about 70 pounds overweight and that's dangerous for my health.  Wish me good luck and pray for me cause it's going to be a hard job.

     

Today on my way to work I asked for a sign.  I prayed for just a little sign.  Just a little one to let me know that there's someone or something out there that I can look forward to.  The sign was slight and not bold but it was there.  It's funny how things work.  Just when you think that he's not listening he throws you for a loop as if to say..."See.  I was listening and there's your answer.".  Thank you God.

 

      

 

 

 

So I've had the up and down moods for the last two weeks.  I've been up because I will be moving out to a new house with Conner and I'm happy to get the chance to raise him on my own.  I was down because of the whole divorce thing.  I was feeling really bad about breaking the news to Ryan (my ex) that I'm going forward with filing the divorce.  I don't want to hurt him anymore than I have but I need to move on with my life.  Well I found out he's still with his on and off again girlfriend whom I absoutely dispise.  I don't know why I worried.  Man I'm pissed off.  Mostly because I feel like an idiot.  Why am I worried about someone else when I'm trying to do things that are best for me.  So I'm not going to worry about it anymore.....Thank you Lord. Once again I have learned a very very valuable lesson.

 

 

So I'm moving to a new house as of May 5.  It's actually an investment for my parents that they will eventually live in but in the meantime I get to live there.  It's a big place and will be a lot of work but I'm up for it....